welcome to the board kittens!
So many sad stories, as you can see. I too had an abusive relationship that has caused both anxiety and depression. I guess small people (kids) are so dependant on those we think we can trust that we put up with all manner of abuse.
anyways, welcome to the board, look around and feel comfort knowing how many others (sadly) feel your pain. And thankyou so much for telling your story. I am just moved to tears.
((((((((((((((((((Lyin Eyes)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))) My heart weeps with you.